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Lost & Found


Found on the ground 9/20/96. It appears to be a piece of an envelope.
Front:

	bible
no man comes to 
except the Spirit draw
  God.  That is I can't
  	we're ready
    draw us. If
    you.  I would like to ask our
Back:
	are people I have
	with who believe
ything we've talked about.
ven believe that Jesus is
	he died
	 their


Found on the ground 1/14/97. Handwritten note on fluorescent pink paper.

	Digital Logic
	 Notes etc
	  For GARY
	   4-7802


Found in the Texas Commerce Bank parking lot. Blue ink on notebook paper, front and back. Obviously female handwriting.

Kesh -
	I am so pissed off.  I'm gonna tell ya 
what's up....
	We have a friend of the family named
Chuck.  He grew up with my Dad.  Well
Chuck has a son named Greg.  He's a pretty
cool guy.  When Dad had his own business
Greg use [sic] to drive with him, & they worked
together at another place.  I never talked 
to him 'cause I only saw him occasionally
& he always had a girl with him.  He was
at the cookout Memorial Day for Beth's 
B-day. We talked the whole time, & that
was the most we'd ever talked.  Well,
he gave me his pager number (what does
that tell you?!), so I didn't want to be
rude & I gave him mine.  I figured me &
him & Jef could go out.  Anyway, I didn't
ever think that we'd talk.  It wasn't like
we were close or anything.  He pages me
yesterday & I called him back.  I 
was surprised it was him 'cause I
didn't expect him to call me.  So we're 
talking, havin' fun, flirting a little.
(At least he was.)  He called me 3 times
yesterday, & honey, I wasn't born
then.  He knew we were engaged, but

[continued on back of first page]

he obviously doesn't give a shit.  I mean,
talking is okay, but I know how it works.
You don't call someone else's fiance
three times a day, and just be friends.
So I call him at lunch today 'cause I 
was bored & waiting for my friend to 
bring us back lunch.  .  I told him this
last night, but I mentioned it again
today...
	I said that we could only be
friends because I was engaged, & I
told him I thought he had a 
"crush" on me, but obviously it wasn't 
gonna happen.  I said some other
things, & he got pissed.  He's like 
"How can you accuse me of that?
I'm not calling you anymore; at least
not as much..."  I said "Don't be so
ridiculous.  I wasn't accusing you 
of anything;  I was just telling ya
how it was.  I didn't want to lead
you on or anything..."  Oh well, I don't 
give a shit.  He's a cool guy & is cool
as a friend, but he's pissed me off.  He
also said "I can see right now we
can't go out.  We couldn't be girlfriend
& boyfriend 'cause we'd fight every day."

[continued on second page]

Who the hell said anything about that
happenin' anyway?! He kept asking if I'd
give him a call if Jef & I broke up or if
I'd ever go out with him.  Come on! And
he wants to be just friends?!?!  Yeah right.
He got too pissed & way too defensive to 
say he wanted to be just friends (That 
& all of the stuff about how he'd be if
I were his).
	He said, "Oh, I'd treat you so well.
You're way too fine to let go..."  Something
to that effect anyway. He thinks we
were meant to be.  Uh, no.  He's cool & if 
I wasn't with Jef I might consider.
Actually, no I wouldn't because he's a
bum.  He works for like, one week at
at time, & lives w/ his Dad.  He doesn't
help out at all.  He doesn't go to school,
nothin'.  He sleeps all day & parties all
night (from what I hear).  Jef isn't
making the greatest money, but at least
he tries.  The only time Greg works is
if he has a girlfriend.  That's his
motivation.  He's nice, but he got all mad
& defensive because I was honest w/
him & told him how it was.  Would
he rather I lead him on?  Maybe so, &

[continued on back of second page] 

maybe that's the problem.  He thinks the more
we talk and "hang out" the closer 
he can get, & then Jef and I will break up.
Wrong answer!!!
	I need a man that will work &
support himself.  I don't need another
Bryan.  He might work for me, but that's
what I'm sayin': that's his only motivation. 
He's just a bum when he doesn't have a 
woman to take out.  Screw that.  When 
I said I'm goin' for money the second
time around, I meant it.  I need some-
one with a future.  I can't do this for the
rest of my life, know what I'm saying?
Jef at least pays 1/2 of everything and 
takes me out, & really works his ASS
off for it.  I don't know if I could ever
go back to guys like Bryan.  Probably
not.  I'm getting pretty greedy;  I 
want it all.  The clothes, the cars, the
house, everything.  :)  Well, enough of 
that bull shit.  Write soon.  

[heart shape] Me

Hi Krystina! 


Left on the table by a Rumanian stripper who was sitting in Nathan's lap.

multimesk - thank you

cu plachere - your welcom
yeu te you besk - I love you
masina - car
ban - money
te fout - f*ck you
du te inpizda mati -
du te la Dracu - go to hell


Yellow post-it note found on the UTA campus

Heidi,
Take this form to the
Key SHop located
In Hammond Hall
Basement.

BRING YOUR ID

(You will not be given keys today
you can pick them up on Friday)


[Found on the campus of Northlake Commumity College, near an exhibit of student notebooks about an Italian trip. The pieces appears to be a speech. The interesting thing is there are two versions of it on the same piece of 11x17 paper. Handwritten pencil on plain white paper.]

	When I was in Stumble, there was a cafe called the Stumble
Cafe.  My friend and I used to spend every afternoon half an hour at
that place.  The reason I went to Stumble cafe, because there only had
grate hot tea, caffe and I would like   As you could see
around pleasants cafe from window behind.   The window was huige and in
any side had different colors red, blue, green, ... They were litter
shape squers.  When I went to Stumble cafe, I like sit right next to
the window, so I could see the views around Stumble cafe. The Stumble
cafe was almost in a small street who whole street had made with tiles
light brown, the street only people were passing different directions,
also middle of street.


When I was in Stumble, there was a cafe called the Stumble cafe. My friend and I used to spend every afternoon half an hour at that cafe. The reason I went to Stumble cafe, because there had only a great hot tea, caffe and I would like spots who we're around at the Stumble cafe. There was above a audio and C.D. shop, in fact, there was into audio and C.D. shop and if you would like went to cafe. Should first time you entrance audio shop after, when you passed a few distance you should see starits cafe who had made from wood. The starises were at leass tweeleve. The floor and waslls that had made from wood, there would also be some chars and tables small, simpl and from weood each table had three or two chars nad the tables hage did not chloesthable only the center tables were a bowl suger small from wood.


[This is from a spiral bound "blank book", found in a parking lot. Names edited down to initials only]

[written in flourescent orange ink, printed writing]

@6:30 pm
November 20 99'

Today was my first day @ 
work & I like it so far.  It won't
be easy work, but it's $money$
& I need money for x-mas.

There's a guy @ work
that is so cool his name is
K (he's gay), but he's really
nice.  E his roomate is
cool to.  She said she wants
to make my to party.  I hope
so cuz I need to get some-
thing to do.  I need a life,
not that I don't love seeing
R.   I just think
he might not get so mad at
me all the time.

I wish I new a way to
make him not get mad at me.
Maybe I try to hard to
make him happy.  Or maybe
I've just spoiled him so
bad he takes advantage
of me on purpose.  I really
think he loves me, but he
don't know how to show it.
We're two totally different
people, but that what's so
neat about us.  I wouldn't
changed one thing about even
if I could.  If he feels he
has to be mean then he has a
reason. I just need to watch
what I say and try not to
add on to his bad mood.
And hopefully one of these
days he'll understand why
it hurts me so bad when he 
dose stupid shit.

C called me and 
he says he really loves T
but he's cheated once so 
I don't really know what 
to tell her she says she 
loves him so, I know I'd go
back to R so I can't judge.

[teal ink, printed]
GOALS Nov 20
* get my GED
* beauticians licence
* pay off my car
* help get R a car
* stop smoking (for R)

HOPES-N-DREAMS
* that me and R stay together
  and learn how to get along better.
* R gets happy and realizes that
  he doesn't have to be mean.
* stop smoking weed-n-cig
* never get a divorce
* learn to forgive my dad

ANGER Nov 20 99'
It's been almost been a year since 
my parents got a divorce.  That
means it's been a year today
since it happened because it
happened Nov 20 my mom told
him it was over on Thanksgiving.
So my life ended a year 
ago today.  Even though I've 
never been as happy as I am
with R maybe - that's why I
always wanna be with him.

[sparkly cross sticker pasted
into the margin]

!Thank you lord!
Thank you for taking care of
me you are the reason I got that
job and that car.  Thank you so...
much for R C W 
I've never loved anyone or anything
as much as I love him.
Even if I'm just here to be
his for awhile.  Thank you for
letting me meet such a special 
person
Please don't ever let
us break up!  Thanks for T and O.

[navy ink]
Nov 22  

Black or gray hat size 7 1/8

(ALL ABOUT MY R)
~R~
At one time I thought that
I was just lovin him cuz
I wanted to think I loved him, but
now I know I love him. He's
not only my boyfriend, but 
everytime we touch I get
chills like it's the first time.
Everytime I see him I fall in
love all over agian. Plus he's
my "bestfriend" I know I can
talk to him or ask for advice
about tnything and he'll tell me
the truth! I can't wait or
hope he keeps me long enough
to live together.  That feeling
after work to know that when
I go to sleep he'll be there or 
cooking for him, cleaning
our place or coming home
and getting some GREAT
sex! [smiley face] xox Even when
we go do different things
with his or my friends
knowing I don't have to ask when
to come by agian or when can
I see you.  If he hasn't 
got put in jail. (ha ha)
I know he'll be home.

"ON THE OTHER HAND"
He don't understand me at
all.  And he has a bad temper and
he can be the biggest asswhole
anyone has ever seen, but I know
that I could not live without
him! I finally gave in to a
man and he's nothin like I though
my dream man would be, but 
I know he is my dream man,
or nightmare (ha ha) I [heart] him
very much we'll write more later!
[heart]
D
12:46

[black ink]
[cross sticker] Nov. 30 
[dove/olive branch sticker]


Man, I'm gettin so pissed
@ T cuz she was all
about R & now that R has
a cute ass friend she thinks
R's an ass and I should ditch
him, but I don't think so.  I'm
not even thinkin of it, cuz
I love my baby so much
and there's know way
I gonna lose him by doing
something stupid.  Besides
I might be pregnat and
I if so I want to marry 
the man of my baby I would
love to spend the rest of my
life w/him anyway.  I just
hope he feels the same way
we just gotta stop fightin
all the time.
[heart]
D

[loopy cursive]
I can't believe it's already 
the last month of '99
"Wow".  I hope me & R
are still together we got
into another fight to-
day, but whats new
I just wish he
would trust me.  I know
he gets really jelous, but
come on like he dosen't
go out w/pussy on the mind.
Plus like A just 
out of the blue showed 
up! (yeah Right) Anyways
we gotta work that out
cuz I hate this stupid 
ass fights and being
worried about would R 
want me to be here?
That's not who I will live.
And I will be somebody!
He's full of shit when
he says I won't.  He can't
kiss my ass, cuz I'll
be what ever I wanna
be.  He's a bitch for
makeing me feel that
bad I know by the 
time I'm fuckin almost
20 I'll be someone with
a steady job.  I wish
T and R
would get along cuz
I hate listen to them
T sayin how
evil he his and mean.
R with he's mean
ass words about my 
b-friend. (maybe) They'll
think of how it makes
me feel and stop.  Cuz 
I [heart] T she's awesome
and fun to be with
but then R is
my baby I love him
so much it drives me
crazy.  Well either way
I [heart]love[heart] them both
so I'll hang out with
both.  But I'll always
keep in mind:

Chics over Dicks

D -n- R = [heart]

D -n- T = BFFE

But R's a real good fuck! 
[smiley]

[pencil]
Dec 6 99'
How I Know it's Love`

If you get out in the porin
rain or stand in the eye of 
a huricane and never think twice.
If you turn your back
on selfishness and your thoughts
are for someone else cuz
they've changed your life.
When your heart insist you give
it all and you no longer feel
the fall and you just let go.
When the past is finally
dead and gone and fait leads
you some where to the one
that has your soul.
No part of you questions
no part douts your only
sure it's what loves about.
Nothing and no one
can stand in your way
or keep your heart from
saying what it's been 
dyin to say.

That's how you know
it's love that how you
know it's ment to be
when the span of forever
just doesn't seem long
enough.   (That's how I 
know it's love)

D -n- R [heart] forever

D F [heart]s R C W


[teal ink]
Dec 6 99'

I'm so in love with
my baby (R C W)
he called me out the blue
just to say he loved me.
I wish I could make him
proud of me and get a 
good job.  So he'll know I
wanna do something with
my life with him in it.  I'm
no longer scared that we'll
break up cuz hopeful he
trust me.  I would love to 
have his kid just not
this year.

T is mad 
at me cuz I
won't go to 
Rack'Em

[heart] D

[blue ink]
Dec 7

I went to my knee therapist
today I don't think she'll
help me any.
Anyway.  I'm at R's
of corse I love being with
him even though we some-
times don't talk I love
the way I feel just knowing
were together.  We he out 
of the shower lookin good!
You know what that means c-ya
never mind he put
his pants on.

[black ink]
Dec 11

Well today I felt the
worst feeling I've ever
felt in my entir
life I though I had
lost the most
inportant person in
the world to me, but
it ended up he lied to 
me he went to jack off
with his friends didn't bother
to call or anything.  If he
didn't want to do any
thing thats cool I don't
care I even rented movies
for me & J to watch
but like always I told
J we would do it later
cuz my baby is off
work and wants to 
spend time w/me!
All he had to do was 
call and say Hi Baby
I took off work, but me &
R are gonna hang out
I would have been just
fine me & J could have
watched our movies
and be happy.  BUT 
I waited for him scared
to death something had
happened to my baby.
I think that should tell
me something I just don't
want to think that he really
dosen't care! [frowny face]

[heart]
D

Plus I waiting 
for him to get
home cuz my
mom don't want
me home.  So
All I can't do is 
sit here in the
rain and cry!
Why did I
throw away my
life?




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